are you dizzy yet?

You close your eyes and kiss your hand, then you blow it, but it isn't meant for me and I notice..

The time for a post on Jimmy Eat World is upon us. I can't believe it's taken me this long, to be honest. I have so much love and respect for this band it's silly. I remember getting Bleed American for Christmas my freshman year of high school. I can't even play the CD anymore because it has so many scratches from years of  loving wear.

When I tried to think of which song(s) I was going to reference for this post, three came up immediately:
1) 23
2) Dizzy
3) Cut


23 is my hands down favorite song they sing. I actually saw them perform said song the day after my 23rd birthday. They put on one of the best shows I have ever been to. I was front row and managed to get the set list. I'm one of those losers that loves getting things like that after the show is over--keepsakes, you know?

So, 23:
I felt for sure last night, that once we said goodbye, no one else will know these lonely dreams. No one else will know that part of me. I'm still driving away, and I'm sorry every day. I won't always love these selfish things. I won't always live...not stopping...


It's so strange, but at 23, this was my life. Even now, I can't think of any other song that I can relate to as well as I can to this one. In fact, over the past few months, I haven't even been able to listen to it, because I can't handle all of the emotions that surface when I hear it.

I won't always love what I'll never have. I won't always live in my regrets.

I hope I don't always love what I'll never have, but I can say that I don't have any regrets.

Dizzy:
Very rarely do I find a song that I consider perfect. I find myself nitpicking songs, and will come across small nuances like double negatives, a weird pitch change, the chorus is repeated one too many times, or lyrics that don't rhyme. Dizzy is no such song. It's perfect.

If everything I meant to you, you can lick and seal and fold in two, then I've been so blind.

When they played this at the show, I remember being in complete awe. This is a song that can change lives, and though it sounds crazy, when I listen to it, I can feel mine changing. I put it on almost every single mixed CD I make people; it's that good.

Oh, oh, take it all back, take the first, the last, the only. Oh, oh, take it all back, take it all back, everything you showed me. Oh, oh this must be how it feels when the feeling goes...


Everyone has had that moment when a relationship is ending, and you see it, almost in an out of body sort of way. That's what this is to me. That moment when you realize it's almost the end, and you think about all of the things you could say or do to make this person, the one you want so desperately, to stay.

I told you as I hovered, I never felt this way. You said I have the shot that stops my clock, baby it's okay. You said you'd never have regrets, but Jesus, is there someone yet who got that wish? Did you get yours babe?


When this has happened to me, I think of all the things I'd want someone to say to me. What do I want to hear? Well, I want to hear Dizzy. Maybe that's why I don't really have functional relationships, since I live in a fantasy land where music is the solution to all of life's problems. The more I think of it, though, is it really enough? Would a song make me change my mind about leaving the person I'm with? I have no idea, but Jimmy is definitely your best bet.

Cut:
This is off their most recent album, Invented. I can't write much about this one, as the words are too real and the wounds have only just healed.

There's always some baggage you've got to check. I'm trying, hope that you'd understand. I'm sorry boy, but I'm not cut for this no more. Yes, I loved you boy, but I'm not cut for this no more..

There are so many JEW songs that I can't even touch on, because this post would go on for days, so that's pretty much all you're getting for now.

Until that next fateful post, if you haven't already, you should check out: Goodbye Sky Harbor, Work, Praise Chorus, Let It Happen, Polaris, Big Casino, Futures, Mixtape, and The Heart is Hard to Find. I promise you won't regret it.

crimson and clover, over and over.